If this is a dream

If this is a dream
Don´t ever wake me up
I wanna live here forever
Forever… forever…

Never felt more safe
Never felt so completed
Never felt so happy
Never felt so patient
Never felt such love
Never gave myself this much before…
Like I do now…

Never heard so much in the silence
Never understood so much in one look
Never felt my cells exploding before…
Like they did 5 days ago…

Never loved someone else’s eyes
Never loved someone else’s body
Never kissed someone else’s lips
Like I do yours… Like I do yours…

I need no answers
I have no more questions
Cause all that I had
Were cleared the day I met you…

Stars aligned in cleared sky
I know that you´re mine
I know that you´re mine…
And I promise
In the dark that no one dares to see
In the hidden rooms were truth lies and butterflies lives
That my wasted heart you have forever…
And when the blooming summer ends
And the stabbing winter comes
I´ll be by your side,
If I survive
If I´m still alive…

…You´ll be mine…

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

Hoy es un día en que todos recuerdan a aquellos que se han ido de este mundo, aquellos que recuerdan porque han marcado su vida de alguna manera y que se fueron por alguna razón que no entendemos de este mundo. Todas esas personas, me pregunto donde estaran... Muchos creemos en el cielo, pero a veces a mi me cuesta creer...
No quisiera olvidarme de todos aquellos que han pasado por mi vida, aunque sea un pequeño instante, o aunque sea por 10 años, porque esos recuerdos me hacen sentir que he vivido, aunque ya no esten, o aunque aún esten...
Yo recuerdo a mis abuelos, de una forma vaga, pues no pude amarlos porque no supe como. Quisiera haber sentido el amor de ellos, el amor de alguien mas de una forma diferente. Quisiera poder tener a mis primos y tíos, y aunque no estan muertos, están muy lejos, y a veces quisiera tenerlos cerca de mi para compartir, para tener más opciones en quien confiar, y los extraño, pero prefiero no pensar en eso, porque se que nada va a cambiar...
Aunque no he perdido a nadie cercano a mi corazón, he perdido otras cosas, que quisiera tener, que quisera encontrar.





"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

Otro año más...

Un año más, que empieza en otro orden, que termina de otra forma. Un año mas, con nuevas ideas, nuevas cosas que vivir, nuevas cosas que sentir. Un año en realidad no es mucho. Puedo contar con los dedos de mi mano los recuerdos que permanecen en mi mente. Lo demás no existe. Nuevas cosas que aprender. Ahora soy, lo que todos estos años he vivido, y seré en otros años más, alguien que será muy distinta de la que conozco hoy. Seguramente, o solo cambiarán las arrugas en mi frente, y quizás permanezca igual por dentro. No lo se. Es mejor no intentar encontrarle lógica a la incertidumbre, porque puedes resultar más perdido de lo que ya estás. Prefiero no pensar en eso. Prefiero pensar en las cosas por las que lucho todos los días, en aquellas personas que dejan una marca en mi corazón, en los días soleados que me gusta caminar, en las lluvias que me gusta ver tras las ventanas, en los pájaros... Por el momento, empezaré a vivir este otro año, sea como sea y venga lo que venga, espero solo cosas buenas, hasta que venga el siguiente, y el que sigue después...

Feliz cumpleaños.

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

Melpomene - Kashmir

Something
tells me that I'm left without a chance
in my suspicious attempts to get him close
enough to close my lips around his smile
now I can't close my eyes when he's around
and he's around
passing like the wind that shapes the clouds
he is around,
he is around
i don't know
how but suddenly it has been a while
and we're been walking in through that same front door
undressing like there were no parts to hide
and calling each other names we never had
you never heard
and then an unexpected turnand we hit the kerb
a stupid term, a fatal word

Flutter boy
killing me with his sunshine
sunshine
he's so unaware
that he's my melpomene...

you broke the code just like i'm sure you always do without intentions but I knowthat's how I broke away from you now that the clouds are obsolete I hope you landed on your feet without those evil demons keeping you reminding of...the war they pulled us through as fragile hearts ran short of glue as we're both running out of time and seek to drown the fact in wine it should be honest and naive like we should give, we should receive I must be jaded fading out of fuction into solitude...

Flutter boy
killing me with his sunshine
sunshine
he's so unaware
that he's my melpomene
he's so unaware
that he's my melpomene

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

He...

He likes to walk free. And everytime he walks next to me I want to have his hand in mine...

He likes to see the world. And everytime he does, I just want to see myself through him...

He likes to tell stories. And everytime he does, sometimes I don´t listen, sometimes I can´t hear a thing he is saying, I just see his lips moving, silence... and a voice in my head telling me "how perfect can you be?" He don´t think of me as much as I think of him. But if he could count the minutes I dream of him during the day, the day itself wouldn´t be enough... He don´t need me that much. Me instead, need his lips and his arms and his jokes and his voice and his body his smile and everything he is to feel alive.

He rises his eyebrows when he is serious. He likes to walk with his hands on his pockets. He likes to talk about a lot of things, my favorites are when he is simply funny. He has a very thin body, (I just want to have it in my arms every second). When he is sitted, he likes to put his hands on his face, I don´t know why, but he looks lovely. He don´t know that when he is looking somewhere else, I stare at his hands, and think: "how I wish I was everything he wants to see". And when he is sitted, and he takes my hand, my heart goes to the sun and to the stars and its still there. He don´t know that when we are watching tv, I just want to take the remote off his hands, and be inside his arms, and breath his air, and see his beautiful eyes, and kiss him like the first time, and kiss him like we do...

The day is not enough to be with you. When we´re apart, I want to be with you again and again, and never be away. Sometimes I want to say things do things I don´t because I feel like is not the right time, and that the right time will come. Sometimes I´m afraid of loving you so much, and that you don´t love me the same. But the truth is, that I´m falling so hard for you. I love you. I completely adore you. I don´t even have words that can describe the way you make me feel. There isn´t. The truth is, I want to love you like I´ve never loved anyone. I want to feel like there´s no evil between us. I want to love you with any regret. I want to love you with all my heart and soul. I want you to be the only thing I want to remember.

This might be too soon. Wheater is for some time, or forever (which I hope), this thing between you and me, to me is just.... perfect, like I said before, It just can´t get any better...

Yes Im a little girl, I´m naive, I need to grow up still. I might be little and everything, but believe me, I have a big heart with your name being written all over. I madly love you.

This is a dangerous thing. Love is a dangerous game. But I´m willing to take that risk. Are you?

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

Evolución

El cambio, viene en cada momento, en cada segundo. Seguramente he cambiado, no soy la misma de hace 5 años, ni la misma hace 3 ni la misma hace 1 año. Seguro he cambiado. Seguro algunas personas no cambian, y son lo mismo, y sienten lo mismo todo el tiempo. Sin embargo yo, seguro he cambiado. Me han pasado tantas cosas en estos últimos 5 años, que no sabría ni por donde empezar. Y empezar es lo más dificil de todo, cada proyecto toma distintas direcciones, y se divide en otras y en otras y asi sucesivamente, hasta que olvidamos el porqué iniciamos esos proyectos. Empezar sobre todo en algo nuevo, trabajar en un nuevo lugar, estudiar en una nueva universidad, amar de nuevo a alguien diferente, todos los comienzos requieren una energía extra, un empuje, una fuerza externa que haga que todo continúe. He empezado tantas veces, y he termiado también el mismo número, no con la misma energía, ni con el mismo motivo que esperé, ni con las mismas fuerzas, ni con la misma visión. Seguro he cambiado, en algunos aspectos para bien, en otros... para mal. Pero creo que hasta para las mariposas que aún no vuelan, hasta para las lluvias que aún no han caído, el cambio no siempre será lo que uno espera, pero seguro será algo que nos hará llegar al siguiente paso. Ni siquiera se si vale la pena escribir de esto, o preguntarme de que tan importante es el cambio, o el tiempo, y aún así, perder el tiempo o no, sigo pensando en estas cosas, y sigo tratando de encontrar las respuestas en el cielo, o en un arcoiris, en una mirada, en un abrazo, y trato de unir todo para encontar un sentido de vivir.

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

My Art Work... enjoy!

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

Donde?

Donde están los soles eternos, los cielos infinitos, Los mares inocentes, las noches estrelladas?
Donde...?
Donde están los sueños?
Donde están aquellos lugares perfectos?
Donde están los recuerdos
De aquellos hermosos momentos?
Donde esta la magia
De la lluvia en el verano, del amor?
Donde esta todo lo que guarda el corazón?
Vacio…
Negro como el abismo
Con aire y gravedad
Con pura soledad… y dolor.

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

A reminder...

If I get old,

I will not give in

But if I do, remind me of this.

Remind me that,

once I was free,
Once I was cool,

once I was me.

And if I sat down,

and crossed my arms,

Hold me into, this song.

Knock me out, smash out my brains,

If I take a chair, start to talk shit.....

If I get old, remind me of this:
That night we kissed, and I really meant it.

Whatever happens, if we're still speaking.

Pick up the phone, play me this song.

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

To One in Paradise

TO ONE IN PARADISE.

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THOU wast that all to me, love,
For which my soul did pine —

A green isle in the sea, love,

A fountain and a shrine,

All wreathed with fairy fruits and flowers,

And all the flowers were mine.
Ah, dream too bright to last!

Ah, starry Hope! that didst arist
But to be overcast!

A voice from out the Future cries,

"On! on!" — but o'er the Past

(Dim gulf!) my spirit hovering lies

Mute, motionless, aghast !

For, alas! alas! with me

The light of Life is o'er!

No more — no more — no more —

(Such language holds the solemn sea

To the sands upon the shore)

Shall bloom the thunder-blasted tree,

Or the stricken eagle soar!

And all my days are trances,

And all my nightly dreams

Are where thy grey eye glances,

And where thy footstep gleams —

In what ethereal dances,

By what eternal streams.

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”