Enamórate de mi, tanto que quieras verme cada minuto, o aunque sea sentir que estoy cerca.
Enamórate de mi, tanto que quieras escuchar mi voz todos los días, tanto que quieras soñarme todas las noches, o si quiera repetir mi nombre dentro de ti, donde nadie pueda quitarlo.
Enamórate de mi, tanto que no quieras dejarme nunca, como yo no quiero dejarte jamas...

Como yo, que cuando escucho latir tu corazón siento el cielo...
como yo, que quiero verte a cada minuto, escuchar tu voz...
como yo, que me estremece tu presencia, que no se que hacer, que decir cuando estas cerca...
como yo de tonta...
como si nunca me hubiera enamorado de nadie... como mi primer amor...

Te amo... y se que es un error aferrarme a ti (lo de no quere dejarte nunca) pero asi soy, y asi sera mi amor por ti...y aunque no mencione el "para siempre"...... no lo dudo en el silencio...


"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

Parachute-Spectacle

Love is like an aero plane
You jump and then you pray...
The lucky ones remain
In the clouds for days
If life is just a stage
Let's put on the best show
And let everyone know

Cause if I have to die tonight
I'd rather be with you
Cut the parachute before the dive
Baby don't you cry
You have to bring me down
We had some fun before we hit the ground

Love is like a hurricane
You know it's on the way
You think you can be brave
Underneath the waves
If life is just a dream
Which of us is dreaming
And who will wake up screaming...

Cause if I have to die tonight
I'd rather be with you
Cut the parachute before the dive
Baby don't you cry
You have to bring me down
We had some fun before we hit the ground
Cause if I have to die tonight I'd rather be with you...


Well I thought you were shallow
But then I fell in deep
Why couldn't you keep it Our little secret
You're my only weakness



"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

my wishlist

Wishlist-Pearl Jam

I wish I was a neutron bomb, for once I could go off.

I wish I was a sacrifice but somehow still lived on.

I wish I was a sentimental ornament you hung on The christmas tree,

I wish I was the star that went on top,

I wish I was the evidence

I wish I was the grounds for fifty million hands upraised, and opened toward the sky.

I wish I was a sailor with someone who waited for me.

I wish I was as fortunate, as fortunate as me.

I wish I was a messenger, and all the news was good.

I wish I was the full moon shining off a camaro's hood.

I wish I was an alien, at home behind the sun,

I wish I was the souvenir you kept your house key on.

I wish I was the pedal break that you depended on.

I wish I was the verb "to trust", and never let you down.

I wish I was a radio song, the one that you turned up,

I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish....

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

I know a place where no cars go

The arcade fire was right, my body is a cage and my mind holds the key. But the only problem is that I can´t find that key. I have a bomb ready to explode. I don´t know how, or where will it be. My head is twisted in dark thoughts, in dark nights that don´t seem to dissapear. But I have a vision, of how things should be... how they should be...

Dreaming is what I do, for things I can have, for things I can´t have. Either way, dreaming is what I do. It makes me sad and it makes me happy, and right in the middle I stand... the middle between night and day, on a permanent sunset, on a permanent fear, on a permanent questioning...

I need a place to go, I need a place to land... I need a place where I can rest from all the rain, where I can peacefully sleep, without wondering if things will be the same when I wake up, I need to find a place that makes me feel safe, no matter if it breaks apart, away from my dreams and my thoughts, a place I can touch, a place that can touch me back, that makes me feel what I need to feel without explanations...

and he is right when he says: "set my body free"...



"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

If this is a dream

If this is a dream
Don´t ever wake me up
I wanna live here forever
Forever… forever…

Never felt more safe
Never felt so completed
Never felt so happy
Never felt so patient
Never felt such love
Never gave myself this much before…
Like I do now…

Never heard so much in the silence
Never understood so much in one look
Never felt my cells exploding before…
Like they did 5 days ago…

Never loved someone else’s eyes
Never loved someone else’s body
Never kissed someone else’s lips
Like I do yours… Like I do yours…

I need no answers
I have no more questions
Cause all that I had
Were cleared the day I met you…

Stars aligned in cleared sky
I know that you´re mine
I know that you´re mine…
And I promise
In the dark that no one dares to see
In the hidden rooms were truth lies and butterflies lives
That my wasted heart you have forever…
And when the blooming summer ends
And the stabbing winter comes
I´ll be by your side,
If I survive
If I´m still alive…

…You´ll be mine…

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

Hoy es un día en que todos recuerdan a aquellos que se han ido de este mundo, aquellos que recuerdan porque han marcado su vida de alguna manera y que se fueron por alguna razón que no entendemos de este mundo. Todas esas personas, me pregunto donde estaran... Muchos creemos en el cielo, pero a veces a mi me cuesta creer...
No quisiera olvidarme de todos aquellos que han pasado por mi vida, aunque sea un pequeño instante, o aunque sea por 10 años, porque esos recuerdos me hacen sentir que he vivido, aunque ya no esten, o aunque aún esten...
Yo recuerdo a mis abuelos, de una forma vaga, pues no pude amarlos porque no supe como. Quisiera haber sentido el amor de ellos, el amor de alguien mas de una forma diferente. Quisiera poder tener a mis primos y tíos, y aunque no estan muertos, están muy lejos, y a veces quisiera tenerlos cerca de mi para compartir, para tener más opciones en quien confiar, y los extraño, pero prefiero no pensar en eso, porque se que nada va a cambiar...
Aunque no he perdido a nadie cercano a mi corazón, he perdido otras cosas, que quisiera tener, que quisera encontrar.





"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

Otro año más...

Un año más, que empieza en otro orden, que termina de otra forma. Un año mas, con nuevas ideas, nuevas cosas que vivir, nuevas cosas que sentir. Un año en realidad no es mucho. Puedo contar con los dedos de mi mano los recuerdos que permanecen en mi mente. Lo demás no existe. Nuevas cosas que aprender. Ahora soy, lo que todos estos años he vivido, y seré en otros años más, alguien que será muy distinta de la que conozco hoy. Seguramente, o solo cambiarán las arrugas en mi frente, y quizás permanezca igual por dentro. No lo se. Es mejor no intentar encontrarle lógica a la incertidumbre, porque puedes resultar más perdido de lo que ya estás. Prefiero no pensar en eso. Prefiero pensar en las cosas por las que lucho todos los días, en aquellas personas que dejan una marca en mi corazón, en los días soleados que me gusta caminar, en las lluvias que me gusta ver tras las ventanas, en los pájaros... Por el momento, empezaré a vivir este otro año, sea como sea y venga lo que venga, espero solo cosas buenas, hasta que venga el siguiente, y el que sigue después...

Feliz cumpleaños.

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

Melpomene - Kashmir

Something
tells me that I'm left without a chance
in my suspicious attempts to get him close
enough to close my lips around his smile
now I can't close my eyes when he's around
and he's around
passing like the wind that shapes the clouds
he is around,
he is around
i don't know
how but suddenly it has been a while
and we're been walking in through that same front door
undressing like there were no parts to hide
and calling each other names we never had
you never heard
and then an unexpected turnand we hit the kerb
a stupid term, a fatal word

Flutter boy
killing me with his sunshine
sunshine
he's so unaware
that he's my melpomene...

you broke the code just like i'm sure you always do without intentions but I knowthat's how I broke away from you now that the clouds are obsolete I hope you landed on your feet without those evil demons keeping you reminding of...the war they pulled us through as fragile hearts ran short of glue as we're both running out of time and seek to drown the fact in wine it should be honest and naive like we should give, we should receive I must be jaded fading out of fuction into solitude...

Flutter boy
killing me with his sunshine
sunshine
he's so unaware
that he's my melpomene
he's so unaware
that he's my melpomene

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

He...

He likes to walk free. And everytime he walks next to me I want to have his hand in mine...

He likes to see the world. And everytime he does, I just want to see myself through him...

He likes to tell stories. And everytime he does, sometimes I don´t listen, sometimes I can´t hear a thing he is saying, I just see his lips moving, silence... and a voice in my head telling me "how perfect can you be?" He don´t think of me as much as I think of him. But if he could count the minutes I dream of him during the day, the day itself wouldn´t be enough... He don´t need me that much. Me instead, need his lips and his arms and his jokes and his voice and his body his smile and everything he is to feel alive.

He rises his eyebrows when he is serious. He likes to walk with his hands on his pockets. He likes to talk about a lot of things, my favorites are when he is simply funny. He has a very thin body, (I just want to have it in my arms every second). When he is sitted, he likes to put his hands on his face, I don´t know why, but he looks lovely. He don´t know that when he is looking somewhere else, I stare at his hands, and think: "how I wish I was everything he wants to see". And when he is sitted, and he takes my hand, my heart goes to the sun and to the stars and its still there. He don´t know that when we are watching tv, I just want to take the remote off his hands, and be inside his arms, and breath his air, and see his beautiful eyes, and kiss him like the first time, and kiss him like we do...

The day is not enough to be with you. When we´re apart, I want to be with you again and again, and never be away. Sometimes I want to say things do things I don´t because I feel like is not the right time, and that the right time will come. Sometimes I´m afraid of loving you so much, and that you don´t love me the same. But the truth is, that I´m falling so hard for you. I love you. I completely adore you. I don´t even have words that can describe the way you make me feel. There isn´t. The truth is, I want to love you like I´ve never loved anyone. I want to feel like there´s no evil between us. I want to love you with any regret. I want to love you with all my heart and soul. I want you to be the only thing I want to remember.

This might be too soon. Wheater is for some time, or forever (which I hope), this thing between you and me, to me is just.... perfect, like I said before, It just can´t get any better...

Yes Im a little girl, I´m naive, I need to grow up still. I might be little and everything, but believe me, I have a big heart with your name being written all over. I madly love you.

This is a dangerous thing. Love is a dangerous game. But I´m willing to take that risk. Are you?

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”

Evolución

El cambio, viene en cada momento, en cada segundo. Seguramente he cambiado, no soy la misma de hace 5 años, ni la misma hace 3 ni la misma hace 1 año. Seguro he cambiado. Seguro algunas personas no cambian, y son lo mismo, y sienten lo mismo todo el tiempo. Sin embargo yo, seguro he cambiado. Me han pasado tantas cosas en estos últimos 5 años, que no sabría ni por donde empezar. Y empezar es lo más dificil de todo, cada proyecto toma distintas direcciones, y se divide en otras y en otras y asi sucesivamente, hasta que olvidamos el porqué iniciamos esos proyectos. Empezar sobre todo en algo nuevo, trabajar en un nuevo lugar, estudiar en una nueva universidad, amar de nuevo a alguien diferente, todos los comienzos requieren una energía extra, un empuje, una fuerza externa que haga que todo continúe. He empezado tantas veces, y he termiado también el mismo número, no con la misma energía, ni con el mismo motivo que esperé, ni con las mismas fuerzas, ni con la misma visión. Seguro he cambiado, en algunos aspectos para bien, en otros... para mal. Pero creo que hasta para las mariposas que aún no vuelan, hasta para las lluvias que aún no han caído, el cambio no siempre será lo que uno espera, pero seguro será algo que nos hará llegar al siguiente paso. Ni siquiera se si vale la pena escribir de esto, o preguntarme de que tan importante es el cambio, o el tiempo, y aún así, perder el tiempo o no, sigo pensando en estas cosas, y sigo tratando de encontrar las respuestas en el cielo, o en un arcoiris, en una mirada, en un abrazo, y trato de unir todo para encontar un sentido de vivir.

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.”